2009.. my year

2009 is here in full swing!
oh my!
I am still digesting the fact that 2008 is over and out.
2009 for me is gonna be the year that I can take better care of myself and put my needs and wants 1st.
I can't be the best friend, daughter, grand daughter, niece, cousin, student etc.. if i don't start taking better care of myself:

#1- I am not going dwell on negative things
#2- I am not gonna feel bad about expressing how i feel or what i need
#3-I am going to start journalling again and organise my thoughts.
#4-I am going to be more honest where I am at..
#5 I am not going to tolerate one sided friendships anymore and I am going to be more assertive!
#6. Most importantly I am gonna to do what makes ME happy and no one else.


I know that my passion lies with children and I am going to become to best teacher and mentor that I can be. No matter what I have to endure or overcome to get there.. I WILL become teacher.
It has been a hard and long struggle with this French degree.. some days I love French and some days- I just don't want to hear another word of French.
It is quite the rocky relationship French and I are having at ce moment!
oh mon dieu!
But only 3 more months of French to go. There is some saving grace in that..

2009.. is also gonna be the year where I finally gain the courage and the strength to let
"Bob" go..
I can't do it anymore.. it hurts too much...
Someway, Somehow.. I am gonna find a way.. to let him go and most of all: stop loving him.. and take all the love and pour into something or someone else that is way more deserving of it...

yes folks.. 2009 is gonna be MY year..