So it has been a long time indeed. Almost 3 years of no blogging.. wow.. now that is insane.
Where has time gone?!! Clearly out the window.
It is hard to believe that it has been two years since I graduated from Dal. 2 years since I have been in Halifax. I am starting to get Halifax sick. :( I know that I am beyond overdue for a visit. I am slowly starting to realise that I was definitely alot more happier when I was there....
Ever since I have come home, it was been one rollercoaster of a ride. I have purged myself of friendships that are not worth saving and I have surrounded myself with friends who I know will lift me up and will be positive influences in my life.
Things have finally to an end.. or lack there of with " Bob". I would be lying to myself if I didn't say that I am far from happy with the outcome. I never got any closure and I never will. How can I ever get over him... when I was never given the chance to say my real feelings. Now I have to deal with those unresolved feelings.... and find someway, somehow, to get over "my favourite mistake".
The person who I loved more than life itself- caused me so much pain YET i am not over him.
There needs to a billion miles between him and I before I can remotely even begin to get over him. It is hard to go to certain places and NOT think about him. I barely tolerate breathing the same air as him cuz if i did, i would be like a water damn and just break down.
I am still restless on what to do with my life. I am starting to give up on my dream of being a teacher. I just seem to be hitting alot of roadblocks... however..I still hanging on by a thread. Hopefully something pans out.. I need some happiness... and lots of it.
I am overdue.
