I am slowly starting to come to the conclusion : somethings are just not meant to be.
It is time for me to step out of my one side " relationship" and
acknowledge the fact that he will never love or care for me the way
that i want him to.
You just can't make someone love you, no matter what you do or say...
they either love you or they don't.
It is just a part of life that we all have to deal with.... primarily ME.
I definitely know what my heart feels for him.. but his heart doesn't feel the same.. and i can't make IT feel the way that I want it too.
" You can't make your heart feel something that it wouldn't..."- SO PAINFUL TRUE...
A song by Bonnie Raitt pretty much sums up this blog post-
it is called " I Can't Make You Love Me"- oh the dramatic, yet painful irony
[Chorus:]'Cuz I can't make you love me
If you don't.
You can't make your heart feel
Something it won't.
Here in the dark
In these final hours,I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power;
But you won't.
No, you won't.'
Cuz I can't make you love me
If you don't.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Food for thought
I saw this on friend's wall and thinks that it is has significiant meaning. It definitely sums of some of my feelings at the moment. It definitely puts things into perspective and makes me wonder and ponder what is going in my own life.
There is not much else to say- it pretty much sums itself up
People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere, people may cheat you; be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; do good anyways.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
give the world the best you have anyways.
You see, in the final analysis, all of this is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.
There is not much else to say- it pretty much sums itself up
People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere, people may cheat you; be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; do good anyways.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
give the world the best you have anyways.
You see, in the final analysis, all of this is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.
Friday, October 10, 2008
school blues...// matters of the heart
school blues....
It amazes me how fast the time goes by and how it almost the middle of the month! yikes!
Someway, Somehow, I managed to make it through 3 midterms, 2 presentations and French dictee this week! How I managed not want to dig myself an early grave is a miracle.
Now as it is the end of a gruelling school week, I am absolutely EXHAUSTED!!
I think that I have earned the right to sit around and do nothing for a few days!
I have been wallowing in a pool of uncertainity... i have been struggling whether I made the right decision choosing french as my major. I literally dreaded going to class and feeling like an utter failure.. I am slowly to starting to feel better.. but there is still some doubt in my mind.. Hopefully I can overcome those feelings of feeling inadequate soon...
MATTERS OF THE HEART
" Bob" and I have been friends for so long that I have lost count. I have liked him almost as long as we have been friends. I have tried to keep my feelings at bay, but that hasn't worked out too well. They seem to resurface when I least expect them to and don't want to deal with them.
I have been the most supportive friend that i can be... but that often involves me giving up a piece of myself everytime that he lets me down. I am always forever forgiving and forever loyal, but now HOW forgiving and loyal can I be, when my heart is on the line....
I try to act like it doesn't hurt when we don't talk or see each other... but I know that the only person that I am kidding is MYSELF. I have tried to walk away many times from him and our friendship cuz i can't take any more; yet I find myself lured back in every time. I just can't seem to let him go... Some people will say that I am a sucker for punishment and I probably am..... but it is hard to let go...
as one friend put it..." Sammy- he is so your favorite mistake" and indeed he is....
It amazes me how fast the time goes by and how it almost the middle of the month! yikes!
Someway, Somehow, I managed to make it through 3 midterms, 2 presentations and French dictee this week! How I managed not want to dig myself an early grave is a miracle.
Now as it is the end of a gruelling school week, I am absolutely EXHAUSTED!!
I think that I have earned the right to sit around and do nothing for a few days!
I have been wallowing in a pool of uncertainity... i have been struggling whether I made the right decision choosing french as my major. I literally dreaded going to class and feeling like an utter failure.. I am slowly to starting to feel better.. but there is still some doubt in my mind.. Hopefully I can overcome those feelings of feeling inadequate soon...
MATTERS OF THE HEART
" Bob" and I have been friends for so long that I have lost count. I have liked him almost as long as we have been friends. I have tried to keep my feelings at bay, but that hasn't worked out too well. They seem to resurface when I least expect them to and don't want to deal with them.
I have been the most supportive friend that i can be... but that often involves me giving up a piece of myself everytime that he lets me down. I am always forever forgiving and forever loyal, but now HOW forgiving and loyal can I be, when my heart is on the line....
I try to act like it doesn't hurt when we don't talk or see each other... but I know that the only person that I am kidding is MYSELF. I have tried to walk away many times from him and our friendship cuz i can't take any more; yet I find myself lured back in every time. I just can't seem to let him go... Some people will say that I am a sucker for punishment and I probably am..... but it is hard to let go...
as one friend put it..." Sammy- he is so your favorite mistake" and indeed he is....
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