school blues....
It amazes me how fast the time goes by and how it almost the middle of the month! yikes!
Someway, Somehow, I managed to make it through 3 midterms, 2 presentations and French dictee this week! How I managed not want to dig myself an early grave is a miracle.
Now as it is the end of a gruelling school week, I am absolutely EXHAUSTED!!
I think that I have earned the right to sit around and do nothing for a few days!
I have been wallowing in a pool of uncertainity... i have been struggling whether I made the right decision choosing french as my major. I literally dreaded going to class and feeling like an utter failure.. I am slowly to starting to feel better.. but there is still some doubt in my mind.. Hopefully I can overcome those feelings of feeling inadequate soon...
MATTERS OF THE HEART
" Bob" and I have been friends for so long that I have lost count. I have liked him almost as long as we have been friends. I have tried to keep my feelings at bay, but that hasn't worked out too well. They seem to resurface when I least expect them to and don't want to deal with them.
I have been the most supportive friend that i can be... but that often involves me giving up a piece of myself everytime that he lets me down. I am always forever forgiving and forever loyal, but now HOW forgiving and loyal can I be, when my heart is on the line....
I try to act like it doesn't hurt when we don't talk or see each other... but I know that the only person that I am kidding is MYSELF. I have tried to walk away many times from him and our friendship cuz i can't take any more; yet I find myself lured back in every time. I just can't seem to let him go... Some people will say that I am a sucker for punishment and I probably am..... but it is hard to let go...
as one friend put it..." Sammy- he is so your favorite mistake" and indeed he is....
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